by Carolyn Ehrlich

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But Esau ran to meet him and embraced him and fell on his neck and kissed him, and they wept (Genesis 33:4).

Read Genesis 32:22 – 33:17

Today, I want to look at the big picture of reconciliation that has reached its pinnacle in verse four. Jacob stole Esau’s birth right and then ran away. He found a beautiful woman to marry but was tricked and had to wait another seven years to marry the one he most loved. God blessed him in exile but then told him to return to his homeland. And now he had to face his older brother and his past. Jacob needed to come face to face with things he had done in his youth. Jacob was different now but did not know if Esau would accept him. Jacob was fearful. He sent gifts to Esau, trying to show that he was sorry. He also had to wrestle with God.

Reflecting on my understanding of reconciliation and forgiveness, I have often believed it is something I just do and then get on with my life as before. But this is not what this story is telling us.

Let’s look at what Jacob actually did. He didn’t face the person he had wronged for a long time – he ran away, avoided the situation and got on with a life separate from his brother. But eventually, Jacob had to return to the scene of his crime (so to speak). On that journey to reconciliation, he listened to God. He responded when the angel of God appeared to him – he said: ‘Here I am.’ Even though he ran from his brother, he did not run from God when called. Is God calling you to reconciliation right now? Jacob was afraid at more than one point on this journey. He was frightened about leaving Laban and returning to Esau.

Are you on a journey to reconciliation? If you are, and you are frightened, know that Jacob was too, and God is with you. Then Jacob had to wrestle with a determined but unrecognised stranger. Are you wrestling with a stranger? Could that stranger be God? If you are, you may come away changed, but ask for God’s blessing anyway.

Then Jacob came to the point where he was entering Esau’s territory. He was stepping into Esau’s lands and way of doing things. Jacob was going into that place where the initial hurt/damage/injury/insult had occurred. To that place where he had done wrong. Is this where you are? Jacob sent gifts to Esau. He was testing how Esau would react. He was uncertain. You might be in that uncertain place. Pray. God has a plan, and his plan is good – always.

So, is this what reconciliation looks like? Seeking forgiveness if you are the one who has done wrong? Wrestling with God. Foreshadowing that you are on your way. Praying fervently. A journey that, at the end of the day, must be walked alone (verse 14).

Lord God, thank you for being with me always. Thank you for being a God of reconciliation. Please be with me on my journey of reconciliation today and always. Please show me where you are and what you want me to do. And Father, please bless me on this day. In Jesus’ precious name, I pray. Amen.

by Carolyn Ehrlich

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I am not worthy of the least of all the deeds of steadfast love and all the faithfulness that you have shown [me] … Please deliver me from the hand of my brother (Genesis 32:10a,11a).

Read Genesis 32:3–21

Unworthy. I don’t know about you, but when I feel unworthy, I often focus on what is wrong with me. How broken I am. I also want to please others. I certainly would come with gifts to placate a brother who would rightly be angry with me. Jacob does that, too. But he also recognises and appreciates the steadfast love and faithfulness that God has shown him. He has been blessed with family, livestock and riches, and he knows it. Despite his brokenness, God has continually shown Jacob how much he is loved. And still, Jacob is frightened of Esau. So, he boldly asks God for deliverance even though he is unworthy.

From today’s reading, one reality and two questions arise for me, which I think deserve to be pondered. The reality: God’s love is steadfast, unchanging, ongoing, given, a gift, unwavering, believable, trustworthy, available and demonstrated. When I think about the vastness and certainty of God’s love for me, I am overwhelmed. Still, it is right and proper to think about God’s love for you. Like Paul, it leads me to say:

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:38,39).

Based on this unwavering, steadfast love of God, the two questions that I think deserve consideration are: ‘Where has God shown his steadfast love for you in your life?’ and ‘What can you boldly ask him to deliver you from today?’

Jacob had good reason to be frightened that Esau would harm or kill him. But he turned to God for deliverance. We, too, can and should turn to God for deliverance. Does that mean things will go the way we want? No. But they will go the way God wants. His love is steadfast. He is faithful and delivers us, even though we are unworthy. Praise God.

My Father in Heaven, thank you for your steadfastness. Thank you for all the mercies you extend to me every day. Thank you for always loving me. Thank you for the many blessings you give me each day. Today, I come before you and boldly ask you to deliver me from [fill in the whatever you need here]. Through your Son, Jesus Christ, I pray. Amen.

by Carolyn Ehrlich

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Then the Lord said to Jacob, ‘Return to the land of your fathers and to your kindred, and I will be with you’ (Genesis 31:3).

Read Genesis 31:1–21

God gives Jacob a promise, a promise that Jacob could rely on. That promise was simply, ‘I will be with you’. God gives each one of us that promise, too, when we are obedient to his instruction. All we must do is to be available. In response to God’s calling, like Jacob, we must say, ‘Here I am’ (verse 11).

I don’t know about you, but I cling to God’s promise that he will be with me. I do not know what is around the corner. I also do not see the full picture of what I am saying ‘yes’ to when I say to God, ‘Here I am’. I might get an idea about what this picture looks like by looking back over my life and seeing where God has been and what he has done. I know that God’s fingerprints and handiwork are all over my life.

But how do I hear God? Most certainly in his word and the teaching of his word in Sunday services. What am I listening for? Like Elijah in 1 Kings 19:11–13, we do not always hear God in the big things like fire and earthquakes. Instead, ‘After the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire the sound of a low whisper’ (1 Kings 19:12). Be still and listen for the sound of a low whisper. Pay attention to it.

Knowing that God will be with you today, would you join me in listening for his gentle voice? Ask God to show you where he has been in your life. Ask him to show you his hand, even in the most challenging places of your life. In trauma, grief, childhood, adulthood, loss, joy, sorrow, happiness, tears, work, play, disagreements, shared conversations, controversy, disobedience, someone else’s disobedience and all the places and spaces of your life, God has been with you. I know that for certain because he promises to be with each of us who believes in the name of Jesus. But I don’t always see his hand. Ask and then wait for him to show you. Get a cup of tea, sit and ask. Look, listen, smell, taste, feel. God will show you because he is faithful and steadfast.

Loving Father, you always keep your promises and have promised that you are with me. Here I am. Show me where you are in my life. You know my heart’s deepest yearnings. You know my desires. Please help me always know and unquestionably trust your goodness. Amen.

Carolyn Ehrlich lives in retirement with her husband Wayne in Ipswich, Queensland. Prior to retirement, Carolyn worked as a researcher in the disability and rehabilitation fields. Today, Carolyn keeps busy with hobbies, supporting the Ipswich Lutheran Parish in various leadership roles and supporting her family.